Blackbird Poetry

I know you don't mind Telling people good- bye.   I think you leave often become a mere passerby.  You'd rather leave someone Before she leaves you,  You make up your mind Long before she'd do.   You cast her aside You give her away, And somehow you think it's  better this way? I fell for it too Over all others objections... I thought you loved me -  It was just your fleeting emotion... I looked to your messages big and small, I gave you so much And you asked for it all. And then you left without a sign of sadness or tear... And I longed for a note, Or some news to hear. And silence fell on anxious email glances And nothing was heard of--- All sunken chances. And if you can't be a man Be a mere boy Don't play with my heart I'm not a toy.  Don't send empty promises Out to the world  Don't talk of love if  She's not the right girl. Don't send your kisses  To any lover at nig...

Everything looks better- with eyes closed. No makeup to hide behind, No fancy clothes. The only place to finally be Real finally free No one here No responsibility No one to speak to Finally... Just me.

I have a folder of your meds at home I saw you lay there helpless Alone and so forlorn. I struggled to hold back the tears as I cried And I tried. I tried. And your heart started beating Despite what they said And God answered all the prayers That all of us had said. I grabbed your hand and I tried to hold on As they wheeled you back downstairs. Again. And even though I'm older, I'm still needing you so Your still my daddy and I don't want you to go. Wrapped up for ages just wanting your 'go ahead' Only hearing what I should've done instead..... Yeah we have our history--- Of fighting Yes we did fight. But Dad,  I need you so tonight . You've got to pull through this...... We've got to get through this I've felt so all alone And there's so much I would miss. You thought you had lost me all those years ago You never gave up Trying so-----... And I got your hand in mine tonight And I have God and the saint...