Blackbird Poetry

You said you weren't  happy being together And your love was just a lie You said you never really loved me And that you didn't know why But then you walked right out the door  And let it shatter down Since then there's so much I have found!!!! And it doesn't really matter  The fact you walked away And it doesn't really matter That there's nothing left to say And I will be ... Everything will be alright Yes,  everything is alright.  Yeah,  Everything will be alright,  Yes, Everything is alright You took everything with you The day you left me there And you broke my heart in pieces Without any concern or care And I had to lift me off  the bedroom  floor and decide that I'm worth more! Cause it doesn't really matter..... That You finally walked away And it doesn't really matter That there's nothing left to say And I will be ... Everything will be alright Yes, everything is alr

I'm a girl with daddy issues I won't let it bring me down. Thinking if I please him He'll decide to keep coming round. He always says I could do better Never had a good, kind word to say I can't keep livin (With his put downs-) For he's tearing my beauty away. I longed for him when I was younger I failed to secure any of his revere; Now I'm dating some men, Just tryin to fit in- And I keep wondering what's brought me here. Sometimes when I least expect it, an unkind word they'll say- And for some reason I think I deserve it- For causing them some sort of dismay. Daddy, daddy- Please don't treat me Not like your other hoes Daddy, daddy please show me- That I'm worth more than all of those. What I have to remember: My Daddy never would say, Never could say: soft, sweet things to me... My daddy-  My dad could never love nobody- - My daddy's dad's- treated him the same, My daddy- Never learned the lesson, he

Keeping up appearances of doing what's right Not wanting our News Story-   on the street tonight. We've both got a sweet someone Waiting for us at home.  The night's twisted enchantment Leaves us tired and alone. Love is sometimes such a four letter word. It's demanding, all-consuming, and leaves humble beginnings blurred. Somedays this love affair seems too messy to continue. But it's too painful to end  And it's pulling at everything in you. All while he sleeps An innocent babe next to me He seems so sweet But I just can't leave. What kind of a person, Can do this to another? It's a woman that's  in love  with some other lover.

Angels are calling out to me Please keep me safe through the night. Won't you help me? Because I won't beg- But I need some light Please keep me safe through the night. Angels are all around me Please help me keep it together Cuz I'm so troubled and I'm so weak We'll get through this together. ------------- Angels keep watch They're with me always They know what I face Throughout every day. They hold my hand They dry all of my tears They talk to me gently And soothe all my fears. Angels are around us Both big and small I'm never afraid- Because I've known them all. They're family and friends That have gone to a better place. They show me the way With such love and grace. And I can rest quietly And be rest assured That all of my trials and prayers Never go unheard. My guardian angels- They light my way- They'll be with me always Till my dying day.

I took the twig and drew A line in the sand The moment you took her side I was coming in for a bad crash land And it didn't take long to decide. It was her or me - How dare she glare and speak to me that way. How could you? You drew a line in the sand that day A sideways remark, ill tended words Left me mystified,  speechless They were unkind and cruel Not a hint of sweetness. As your family sat drinking And having lunch with margaritas in the shade. I wanted some time away from them Away from this escapade. You bought a round of beers for them And partied the night away Then you wanted to make up with me and I knew just what to say: "You take your bags, I'm staying here, Behind my lock and key. I married you -and only you  Not your family!" And you chuckled and shrugged Saying they didn't know like this was acceptable behavior And I had to gasp because I had been shunned  All because I had blamed HER. You took her

I knocked and you answered Then you invited me in. We had been dating once... And now we've decided to be friends. The apartment smelled of cheap cigarettes and booze and now there's only quietness here And there's nothing to lose! We decide to sit And shoot the breeze Have a few beers talking's such ease Your unshaven stubble Adds a brand new look Can't you stop looking so Se xy You've got me hooked. And your clothes are comfortable like our relationship - worn. i've got to get outta here before this turns into porn You're house is messy like it always was I used to take care of you Like the land of oz. You were my tinman And I was your girl We wanted a few totos Till it started to unfurl. Now I'm here in your midst And I can't concentrate on anything but you Why didn't it last?  Let's try a re-do.

I listened to my father   On my graduation day He said you're not getting younger And there's no time left to play.   But I wanted to explore Down in Mexico I wanted to sew my seeds And forget what it was all for And I was lost As a man has a right to be I was lost On my epic journey And it's time for me to wander To be hungry, wild and good. They'll ne'er understand me I'm just misunderstood. At his party,  My best friend said to me,  Tie the knot And build a family Cuz we don't have much longer To get started down this road Look-  dude you have Marcy You're at a crossroad. But I wanted to explore Down in Mexico I wanted to journey down See the city, Cuzco! And I was lost As a man has a right to be. And I was lost On my epic journey! And it's time for me to wander To be hungry wild and free It's time for me to lose myself-  Nowhere I'd rather be! And so

She decided she needed something different She decided to change something for real She always had hated her earlobes Her lips would never "seal the deal". Her tummy was now flabby And her arms now jiggled when she walked She wanted some quick fix that reflected a "new" girl Instead of the girl she got.  So she went to the cosmopolitan city And checked in at the spa And she had her looks evaluated They even checked out her ta ta's!  And when they finished up the exam An estimate they had comprised They told her to come back again,  Once she had gotten over her surprise.... Because the list was now quite long Longer than she suspected once before And she wondered how she had not known To much of her bitter horror! She went home and thought about it And cried a little too-  How could the people at the spa Let her leave with so much left to do?  Then she drove back to the city With all the money she had saved,  And asked for botox, l

Bury the stories I've shared with you Put them in a box for a rainy day When you're home all alone And you're scarred- and your torn You can come back to them. Love isn't just passion in the dark It's when you've been through something together And you open your heart And you give something away,  and you get something back, And you find beauty, trust and love there Don't forget the stories we've shared Remember what it all meant and how we got there Remember the games that we played  And the bed that we made and promise me that you'll remember So we've had years of both bad and good Had busy lives in this neighborhood May've fought once in a while But we always reconciled And we always had trust and beauty there. I was in the yard when I got the news It was a letter from my doctor about the bruise I had a positive test The timeline was hard-pressed. God smashed my beauty and trust there.  They s

Why do you ask when it's not yours to know? Why do you always say things that leave me wanting more? When I hear your voice it's more than just a song.... It's the passion that keeps me turned on... Could this be forever, of wanting you so near? Right now you're miles away, would it be the same if you were here?' Desire is a loud noise that screams from my soul These inherent urges keep me from being in control. Could you stop asking me if I'm finally over you? Why would you ask, if it wasn't madness for you too... ?

Twilight and midsummer nights, The forest awards from her sleep. The fairy elves dance in the new fallen snow, And the sleepy-eyed owl watches them. She keeps them all under watch Guarding them ever so Willing to protect their Mystical play Yet careful to never be heard!

We were good friends-  So many times Pass before my mind Good times- happy times So many times. I did trust you Only to have you Spit in my face and walk by. Our time together was remarkable Till it wore down to a single thread And was ripped from beneathe the Feet in which I walked. I thought of you as a true friend Trustworthy and lifelong Our eyes sparkled at the plans that we made Only to drip from our lids As the dreams faded away. Successes turned into jealousies And jealousies into bitterness. Now our eyes meet And we see incomplete plans Both of us hating the other for not following through What started out as the truest of friendships failed to last And the roses we had once Have crumbled from the grip we once held.

Fantasies were once All that I held, And dreams were Everything and more. Yet now I see What is now in my grasp And I realize my search Is for more. I've walked for miles With barely a clue Thinking just a smile for me would be fine, But what I want now Is suddenly becoming clear And whatever I choose will be mine.

I caught him staring at me today While I worked busily As he tried to quickly look away- He was wondering what his brother saw in me. I caught him starting at me today With his eyebrows raised Beneathe his silver rimmed glasses Wondering what his son saw in me last summer. I caught her staring at me today With just a moments glimpse Knowing I would never measure up To what her son deserved. I caught her staring at me today With nothing but an eyeful Wondering what her brother saw And wondering if it would last. I caught him staring at me today My eyes questioned the reason of his glance And suddenly I knew, he wasn't looking at me- He was noticing the lash upon my cheek- As he quickly brushed it away. I noticed him watch me with his grandma- And as I hung out with his friends, And I knew- what they thought of me didn't matter... And it probably never did.

You're asking me You're asking me to tell you to move on That I'm happy where I am And with whom I belong. You're asking me to tell you that I'll be alright That I'll be the distant memory  On the darkest night. And I know just what you say  Is so right But it's hard when my  Heart refuses to see the light And I know just what you're saying Rings so true Yet it's hard to get my emotions round getting over you. And I want to be the girl That is so proper and perfect And I want to be the girl,  The one you'll never forget, the one you'll always respect. So you're asking me to tell you to move on That life as we know it  Will go on.  And yes-  Life will go on, and on So if you want me to tell you To move on, that I'll be alright To give you back your heart In exchange for what is right.   That's what I'll do-  I'll tell you ....(goodbye)

The other night I saw you, Sitting at the bar Lights flashed as the music grew And I wasn't even fully sure if it really even was you. Nights we had talked of things needing change... And we were so ready to speak of change, and the ills of the world. And ways we'd become involved. This night that I speak of, your eyes were full And I've never seen the sight of what must've been deep on your mind. The drink that you held- or was it the drug that you were on- Kept me far, far at bay. And although I was with someone else,  I was your confident and friend.... But this night I was no one to you but a stiff passing by. I tried talking to you- but you refused to talk and you looked the other way.  And I looked at you anyway, as you continued to look through me.  You never pretended-  you just were.you were jolly and witty,  made of ideas made of both whiskey and honey and that's what I loved about you. And I wish I could say, that my dreams like yours,  ha

Childhood- A time of playfulness? Could I be happiest Away from these walls? Abundance- All means enslavement to me... What I must endure to be So much as loved. Experience- Times of innocence... Why I am dependent here Here in his home? Affluence All seems so exquisite to some But does anyone know the real reason I don't want you to leave? With nothing to lose And with everything to gain- Just taking a chance to run- And to break free from the pain. Memories. No more distant storms Awakening to a brighter norm Away from his fist. Happiest Than I've ever known. Keeps me from going home. Here's where I'll stay.

Mohito Can't stop me now My heart's in full motion Though other's would stay In true devotion But it's just time lost While waiting for fun,  You'll never believe me,  Till it all comes undone.  Never have faltered Am I willing to try?   Never get what I wanted,  Do I even ask why?  So the pendulum swings,  Which way should I go?   I'm going down South  For my lone Mohito. 

The Grass May Never Be Seeing you makes me laugh,  And to sing,  But I know the grass isn't always greener.  When I'm around you the time just seems to  pass,  But I know the grass isn't always greener.  That's what they say The people who don't dream They say it's all about stability and financial things.  That's what they say,  as the world goes on changing that the only thing that matters is 401Ks and retirement savings But I feel a connection  When I look into your eyes,  But I know the grass isn't always greener.  That's what they say... That I'm old enough to know, that I'm wise- And the grass may never be greener...  The grass might never be greener.  The grass will never be greener. The grass can never be greener. The grass will never be greener.

Grandma Was a Mighty Woman Chorus: Grandma was a mighty woman, Grandma was a mighty woman Grandma's a gem Who'd tell us her cares She used to bring "goodies" And send Grandpa downstairs. She used to go shopping And we'd go along, We'd come back long after The sun went down. She's the one who would beg To see her grandchildren She'd listen to their stories And she'd say their forgiven. She'd make the lunches While her men worked the fields She had an 8th grade education but she knew cooking yields. Grandma could drive And turn on a dime, She'd get us to church Never late, but on time. She loved her checkers, She loved her Rummy She never thought -   That Grandpa was funny. She was a woman Her name was Eileen The mightiest woman That I'd ever seen.

I feel our souls connect In a strange unusual way When my heart feels your pain And I long to stay... When we look at each other and we know there's a bigger reason we met-  But now we have to go.... And we haven't even said goodbye yet. And this love seems so unfinished And I long to hold you near And I hate you so for trying Because I have feelings so true now I fear.

Everyone's got to have their rock She was that someone for me She loved to spend her time sitting Shootin the breeze And always listening She would tell us that we were her girls She always felt that way She would make the time No matter what And chuckle as she'd say: You were your mom's, And you were my girls too- I've always felt that way! I've always  felt that way. She lost her mom age eighteen Her dad died at twenty eight- She lived a life of real hard times But it never controlled her fate! She would make the sweetest things In her special kitchen there Wanting to talk and share the small stuff With always such love and care And when times would get to be trying As they oftentimes could be She would raise her eyebrows and laugh Always looking for the good and the funny! And oh, I loved her so This sweet sweet grandmother of mine And I will always cherish time spent with her The days were warm n sunny and fine. She wo

For Me: Tell us that Angels are going to be with you Tell us that you're safe and warm- Tell us we don't have to worry- Because you're happy to go home Tell us that wonderful things await you. Tell us all your fears are gone. Tell us all the saints are with you As they're calling you home. Tell us that your pain's subsiding That you feel safe enough to go. Tell us only love awaits you- and the heavenly father so... Keep your mind upon the journey Now it's safe enough to go. Know that better things await you-  The bible tells us so.

If Everything Weren't Wrong It'd Be Right If everything weren't wrong it'd be right. Thinking of your gentle laugh And your eyes sparkling bright I was looking for cover just a warm place to hide You took me in, kept me safe And listened as I cried. You may have needed someone But you didn't show your pain Instead we found a rainbow there With a sprinkling of the rain. You gave me something to believe in And maybe I did that for you- It seems we spoke the same language that few others will ever do, You were a world wonder, You helped to shed new light. I want you to know that I really want you- And that if everything weren't wrong it'd be right.  

It Felt So Right It was so wrong,  but it just felt so right Never in my wildest dreams Did I see it coming to light. Just when I felt strong, I fell to my knees, And you held me tighter From all inequities. My mind couldn't think straight You're were the only thing on my mind- I had gone to get water But you were all I could find. You were just like a drug You were all I could find- Can I get help for this headache.  I'm losing my mind! Just when I found you, You disappeared in the night, You left me addicted, In the dark without light. How could you do this? I thought you loved me But you walked away So unexpectedly. It was so wrong,  but it just felt so right Never in my wildest dreams Did I see it coming to light Just when I felt strong, I fell to my knees, And you held me tighter From all inequities.

(Not necessarily my beliefs anymore, but here it is....) Church How dare you- Play with hidden souls The church collects your thoughts Making them narrower than before. You call yourself a servant? Whom do you serve? No money to the poor- But only to the church. Where all is made "complete". Where words once spoken Remove the heart That pumped so sparingly there before.

Chimes- Dong, Cliang' Keep my memories faint Talk of hopes and dreams And tell me the meaning Of this tragic world. Your insides are hollow Yet your sound is such- a beautiful noise That plays upon the melody of my soul. Climp ' Talk-  I'm listening.

All That Glitters All that sparkles isn't gold. Sometimes it's a smile on your face, or just a hand to hold. Sometimes all that glitters Isn't diamonds and pearls, It isn't just a handsome man, it isn't just a pretty girl. At times there's a lesson in helplessness. When life's at it lowest low, When people finally come forward- With love and emotions show. Sometimes it's a good intention To make someone feel they're home. To make them feel loved, or that they are not alone. Sometimes it's a compliment made When all else is hidden without mark, Sometimes it's walking someone home So they won't be alone in the dark. Sometimes it's a whisper out of desperation that things will be alright after love and catastrophe Love shows itself so bright. At times it's love that glitters And it isn't always gold- And when you're lucky there's a hand to hold.

Lover's Bond Let us breathe The night-warming air, And look at the world Through each other's eyes. At night we connect, Entangled in the passion of living. Warm and caressing- We hold two different worlds joined as one- Desire slips from our bodies And for the moment Breath and worlds unite.

Catching Z's in the lunchtime hour With the kiddies and the street performers playing With the workin people having lunch and the warm sun ablazin With the college kiddos taking orders the street drummer keeps a thumpin and the sun rolls gently beneathe the clouds and I start dreamin somethin I dream of marchin in the band with tamborine  and big drums poundin and I remember thinking I was back at work with somethin loud resoundin And I closed my eyes again for awhile it was half past 12 only to be awakened by (I think a horn) as far as I could tell I sat up in my car at last for this goal to sleep seemed fruitless And I went right back to work again My nightshift as a waitress

Big empty boxes Separation is clear Whatever happened to get us here? Years of laughter We are friends at the least Two separate desires splitting paths with such ease. You wanted a baby That never could be I wanted everything planned perfectly. Where are we going Where has this gone? The love we shared that was so common? What can we do to save this?Can we start once again? What about all of the tension? What about all of the sin? What can we do here? What can we know?Can we stop this nightmare- How far will it go?